One of the biggest stigmas about living with experience of a
mental illness is taking medication.
Everywhere I’ve turned lately, I have come up against the belief
that being on medication is some sort of cop out and you’re a hero or heroine
if you give it up.
Please, never encourage people who have diagnoses of
bipolar, schizophrenia or depression to quit – especially if the medication is helping them.
Talking about suicide, the website Bipolar Lives says: “Dramatic
reductions, both for attempts and completions, is one of the most striking
impacts of lithium and other effective mood stabilisers.”
One of the most compelling aspects of living with bipolar is
the temptation of going off my meds. Why? Because I miss the manic highs. They
are amazing and you feel like you can conquer the world.
But these highs don't last.
When the mania erodes, like the slow shattering of a glass-made
world, there’s the plunge – I call it the drop zone – when you find yourself at
ground zero. All memories of what that “high” felt like are gone and often
there’s huge embarrassment about the things you may have done or said “up there”.
The depression is made worse because the difference between the
high and low are so acute. A large number of people with bipolar complete suicide
– a rate of 15%. Of those living with bipolar, 50% will attempt to take their
life and 80% will think about it.
Those are horrifying statistics.
Images like this feed the stigma around taking life-saving mental health medications. |
For me, lithium keeps me stable – I don’t have the huge mood
swings I used to. Yes, I still feel joy, have wildly creative thoughts, and
also feel great sadness and anger.
But if I went off my medication, the outcome could literally
kill me. So please think carefully, before you congratulate someone going off
their meds or even worse, make them feel bad for being on them.
Would you applaud a diabetic for going off insulin? Or a
person with powerful migraines to just tough it out? Or an asthmatic to give up
their inhaler during an attack. Two of these scenarios are life-threatening.
Going off mental health medication can be exactly the same.
I came across a person once who had had a lung transplant – a
huge medical procedure that required drugs so the organ wasn’t rejected.
This same person had a sibling on medication to help live
with the debilitating illness of schizophrenia, and raved about how their loved
one shouldn’t be on these drugs.
Weird that it’s OK to have all the medical intervention in
the world for something physical, but not for a mental illness. I’ve talked
with people who hear voices, who live with psychosis and paranoia, and know it’s
heart-breaking and terrifying. Can you imagine walking around with a voice
talking in your head the whole time, which you can’t switch off?
What many of those people don’t know is that for some
people, like myself, medication is a life saver.
Yes, I tried St John’s Wort, but it caused me to have mini
seizures. So that’s crossed off the list. However, it can work wonders for some
people.
Advice: Don’t ever take it at the same time as antidepressants, because
you could end up with a nasty temporary condition called serotin syndrome. Yes,
you can have too much of a good thing.
The thing about mental health medications is you need to get
the right drugs. You need to work with your doctor or psychiatrist to do that.
Unfortunately, it can take time and patience and, sometimes, you may suffer a
raft of unwanted side effects before the ideal drug or combo is found. The same
goes for medication for physical conditions.
I was put on lithium after I became one of the 50% (see
above).
Nearly three years on, I have been stable, with one short dip
on the way. Lithium has changed my life and my life expectancy.
So please don’t hassle people on mental health medication to
get off and be wary about supporting those who stop taking their pills,
especially those with a long history of extreme mental illness.
If it’s you who’s
quitting, ask yourself why? Is it the stigma, do you miss the highs (if you’re bipolar),
or is it a push from the natural health advocates that’s shaping your opinion? Could it be side effects? If so, work with your doctor to try something else.
For those who are suffering and won’t even look at mental
health medication, think carefully about why. Do you think you deserve to suffer?
Is depression a familiar, almost comfortable place to hide? Are you frightened of medical intervention? Would you feel the same if you had a heart attack? Or meningitis?
This is a great book full of mindfulness tips. |
Then there are those people who won’t go on medication – or go
off it – and instead self-medicate with alcohol or drugs. This is extra harmful
because both can make the illness worse, feed into depression and/or mania and may cause
psychosis.
Believe me, medication isn’t the only answer. For me
mindfulness is my cornerstone, along with Acceptance Commitment Therapy, creativity,
family, friendship, love, laughter, meaningful work, good sleep, healthy food and exercise. Staying well takes a lot of hard work.
Every now and again, I look at my rock-of-a-husband, and
say: “Sometimes I really feel like going off lithium so I can feel that
exquisite high again.”
“I’d rather have you alive,” he replies.
Very very true xx
ReplyDeleteTotally agree with you.
ReplyDeleteGood on you for speaking out. Some people are anti any medication they see as non-natural while others pooh-pooh 'natural' medicine as being ineffective. Do they forget the origins of pharmacology? Nature. St John's Wort works, as you point out. Heck, where does Lithium come from? Then, as you say, there's the view that the mentally ill should tough it out while the physically ill are relieved by pills, injections and surgery.
ReplyDeleteI've been on Epilim(sodium valproate) which was originally developed to treat epilepsy (hence the trade name)since I was rediagnosed as having bipolar illness type 2 and not major depression. What a difference having a mood stabiliser has made! The anti-depressants before then had never really made much difference. I have periods on an anti-depressant as well, and will use sleeping and anti-anxiety pills if needed, for a limited period. I also take fish oil and Zinc/Magnesium/B6 tablets daily.
In addition I have, with help,fine-tuned my knowledge of how bipolar and I live together and developed a plan of action in response to signs and symptoms. As a preventative I try to learn of and implement helpful lifestyle and thinking practices. (Not good at the exercise one!)
My attitude to medication is that I am, like you, very happy to take what I need. It helps me to be well. Deep depressions have stolen quality from my life for too many years and it's been hard on my family; battling suicidality is horrible and afterwards it's such a relief to be no longer stalked by a murderer; hypomania, not that I've experienced it much, can leave a trail of damage or at least embarrassing and nuisance consequences.
But I don't want to take more medication than I need. All medication is broken down in the liver and kidneys where it takes a toll, and, although drugs are tested much more rigorously than in the past, there is always a possibility of unknown, undesirable, long-term effects. Besides, a saving in the government health budget here can be spent elsewhere!
Thanks, Virginia, for sharing details of your own story to make your point.
Thanks Marion. Appreciate your own story. I tried Epilim but I had annoying side effects - shaking jaw, which made talking difficult. Yes, it's definitely a learning process, isn't it? I've had periods of deep depression too and they are hideous. Thank goodness the medication I'm on now works. Like you, I don't want to be on too much, so am always on the lowest possible does that is still of therapeutic value.
DeleteWe must do that coffee!
Cheers,
Virginia
I just posted on here about my life with bi polar which is not showing up
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